Kate was still standing on my front step when Paige gave the first sharp cry.
It was not especially loud. Babies cried. Six-month-old babies cried because they were hungry, tired, bored, overstimulated, understimulated, too warm, too cold, or simply offended by the general unfairness of being six months old. I knew that from raising my daughter, Tess, and I knew it from years of listening to frantic parents at the elementary school where I worked as a registrar.
Still, something about Paige's cry made me look down.
Her face had tightened for only a second before relaxing against my shoulder again. She wore a pale green sleeper despite the warm Saturday morning, and one tiny fist had curled around the collar of my shirt. Her dark hair was damp near her temples.
Kate shifted her handbag higher on her shoulder.
"She had a miserable night," she said. "Probably teething. She kept waking up."
Behind her, Ryan was already beside their SUV, checking something on his phone. He looked tired too. He glanced toward us once, then opened the driver's door.
"Are you sure you two shouldn't stay home?" I asked. "I don't mind keeping her, but if she's actually sick—"
"She isn't sick." Kate answered too quickly, then softened her voice. "Sorry. I'm just exhausted. She's been chewing on everything for days. We need two hours without somebody screaming at us."
The smile she gave me looked worn rather than amused.
I adjusted Paige carefully against my chest. "Two hours. Go."
Kate touched her daughter's cheek with the backs of her fingers.
Then she looked directly at me and said, "You're the one person I trust to make the call if she gets too fussy."
At the time, I heard affection in that sentence.
Later, I would hear something else.
Ryan called, "Kate?"
She kissed Paige's forehead, hurried down the walk, and climbed into the passenger seat. Their vehicle disappeared around the corner less than a minute later. I closed the door with my hip and carried my niece into the quiet living room.
Ben had gone to help a friend replace a fence. Tess, already grown and living on her own, had plans for the weekend. For the next few hours, Paige and I had the house to ourselves.
I expected an easy morning.
I warmed a bottle. Paige took three swallows before turning her head away.
"Not hungry?" I murmured.
She whimpered.
I lifted her against my shoulder and rubbed small circles between her shoulder blades. Her body felt strangely tense. I walked her past the windows, where sunlight fell through the maple branches in trembling patches. Normally Paige liked watching leaves move. Kate had sent me videos of her staring at ceiling fans as if she had discovered the machinery of the universe.
That morning, she did not care about the trees.
Her whimpering became a thin, continuous sound.
I tried the teething ring from her diaper bag. Paige pushed it away.
I tried sitting with her upright.
The crying sharpened.
I stood again and paced.
"All right," I whispered. "Tell Aunt Ally what the problem is."
I shifted one hand beneath her bottom so I could bring her higher against my shoulder.
Paige screamed.
The sound stopped me in the middle of the room.
This was not fussiness.
It was not the irritated howl she made when hungry or the exhausted cry of a baby refusing sleep. This came from somewhere deeper. The scream burst out of her so suddenly that her breath seemed to vanish behind it.
I lowered myself onto the sofa without changing her position.
"Okay. Okay. I'm not moving you."
Paige's breathing came in quick little pulls against my neck.
My own pulse accelerated.
I ran through possibilities. Ear infection. Fever. Stomach pain. Something caught inside the sleeper. A diaper pin was impossible; Kate used disposables. Maybe a zipper had pinched her skin. Maybe some thread had wrapped around a toe.
Paige could not tell me what hurt.
But she could tell me when it hurt.
That distinction mattered.
I moved my left hand slightly.
Nothing.
I changed the angle of her upper body.
A whimper.
Then I allowed her lower half to settle perhaps an inch farther across my arm.
Another scream tore through the room.
My stomach tightened.
The pain was somewhere below her waist.
I carried her to the changing table in the spare bedroom, moving as little as possible. Paige's cheeks were wet now. Her tiny hands remained clenched near her chest.
"I know, sweetheart."
I undid the first snap of her sleeper.
No reaction.
The second.
Nothing.
The third opened near her abdomen.
Paige stiffened.
I stopped immediately.
For several seconds, I simply watched her.
Her right leg moved beneath the fabric.
Her left did not.
The realization was quiet at first.
Then it landed with enough force to make my fingertips cold.
I slid the fabric upward instead of pulling it down, exposing her belly without forcing either leg. Her diaper looked normal. There was no blood, no obvious swelling above the waistband.
I touched her right shin through the sleeper.
Paige kicked.
I barely brushed the fabric covering her left thigh.
Her face crumpled before I had applied any pressure at all.
"Oh, God."
I had seen children arrive at the school office with broken wrists and sprained ankles. I had watched Tess fracture two fingers playing volleyball when she was fourteen. Injuries had a particular way of changing the body. People guarded the painful place before their minds consciously decided to protect it.
Paige was guarding her left leg.
A six-month-old child who could not even crawl properly was guarding her leg.
I slid one hand beneath her shoulders and opened the remaining snaps without lifting her hips. Then, millimeter by millimeter, I eased the sleeper away from the diaper line.
Her right thigh appeared first, plump and kicking irritably.
Then the left.
I stopped breathing.
High on the outside of Paige's thigh, partly hidden beneath the diaper elastic, was a dark bruise.
Not a tiny blue smudge.
Not the faint mark babies sometimes acquired from bumping against toys.
This covered a large portion of her upper thigh, purple near the center and reddish around the edges. The tissue looked swollen enough that her left leg appeared thicker than the right.
I stared at it, trying to make what I saw fit inside some harmless explanation.
Maybe the diaper had pinched her.
No.
Maybe the car-seat buckle—
No.
Maybe Kate had noticed it already and—
My thoughts broke apart when Paige tried to move.
She screamed again.
My hands started trembling.
"Don't move. I'm sorry. I'm sorry."
I pulled the sleeper loosely over her without fastening it and lifted her using both arms, keeping her lower body supported as evenly as I could.
My phone lay beside the bottle on the living-room table.
Kate's name was near the top of my recent calls.
For one second, instinct told me to phone my sister.
Ask what happened.
Ask whether Paige had fallen.
Ask whether she knew about the bruise.
Ask whether there had been some accident overnight that she had forgotten to mention.
Then another thought cut through all of those questions.
If Paige was injured badly enough that touching her leg caused that sound, every minute mattered more than Kate's explanation.
I looked at the clock.
Kate and Ryan had been gone barely twenty minutes.
Whatever had happened, I did not need permission to seek help for a baby in obvious pain.
I grabbed Paige's diaper bag, my purse, and my keys.
"I'm taking you to the hospital," I told her.
Paige made a weak sound against my shoulder.
The sudden quiet frightened me more than the screaming.
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Twenty Minutes After My Sister Left Her Baby With Me, One Small Movement Changed an Ordinary Saturday Into an Emergency
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