The first pink sticker appeared on my mother\u2019s clock before the funeral flowers had even been taken out of the living room. I saw it when I came through the front door, still wearing the black dress I had chosen because Frank had once told me it made my eyes look less tired. Diane stood beside the clock with a stack of colored notes in one hand and a pen in the other. She did not look ashamed.<\/p>\n
She looked organized.<\/p>\n
That was what frightened me most.<\/p>\n
There were already blue and pink squares stuck to the furniture. One marked the television cabinet. Another sat on the antique desk Frank had used every morning for twenty years. A blue note was attached to the leather chair where he had spent his final months reading the newspaper with his glasses low on his nose.<\/p>\n
For a few seconds, I simply stood there.<\/p>\n
The house smelled of coffee, funeral lilies, and the roast chicken my sister had insisted on preparing for everyone after the service. Half-empty cups covered the kitchen counter. Coats were draped over dining chairs. Someone had left a plate of untouched sandwiches near the sink.<\/p>\n
Frank had been buried less than an hour earlier.<\/p>\n
His children were already dividing his things.<\/p>\n
\u201cDiane,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n
She turned.<\/p>\n
\u201cOh. You\u2019re back.\u201d<\/p>\n
The casualness of those three words nearly knocked the breath out of me. She looked at me the way someone might look at a neighbor returning from the grocery store, not a woman who had just stood beside her husband\u2019s grave while the minister spoke over a box of damp earth.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat are you doing?\u201d<\/p>\n
She glanced at the clock.<\/p>\n
\u201cMaking a list.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI can see that.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s easier this way.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ross was near the television, measuring the width of the cabinet with his phone. He looked up when he heard my voice.<\/p>\n
\u201cDad always said we could take some things.\u201d<\/p>\n
I stared at him.<\/p>\n
\u201cYour father died three days ago.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo. I don't think you do.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ross lowered the phone.<\/p>\n
His expression hardened immediately. Diane gave him a warning look, but he ignored it.<\/p>\n
\u201cWe're not trying to disrespect you.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou put a sticker on my mother's clock.\u201d<\/p>\n
Diane sighed.<\/p>\n
\u201cEileen, it's only a sticker.\u201d<\/p>\n
I walked toward the clock.<\/p>\n
It had belonged to my mother before I married Frank. She had wound it every Sunday morning. When she died, Frank had repaired the cracked wooden case himself because he knew I could not bear to throw it away.<\/p>\n
I peeled the pink square from the glass.<\/p>\n
The adhesive left a faint cloudy mark.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat doesn't belong to you,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n
Diane crossed her arms.<\/p>\n
\u201cDad bought it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMy mother owned it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDad kept it in this house.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThis is my house too.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ross gave a short laugh.<\/p>\n
There was no humor in it.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat's not what Dad told us.\u201d<\/p>\n
I looked at him.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat exactly did he tell you?\u201d<\/p>\n
Neither answered.<\/p>\n
That silence told me more than either of them could have.<\/p>\n
For nineteen years, I had learned to recognize the spaces between their words. Diane had never called me Mom. Ross had never called me anything except Eileen, even when he was a teenager living under our roof. I had accepted it because Frank had always asked me to be patient.<\/p>\n
\u201cThey'll come around,\u201d he used to say.<\/p>\n
Sometimes I believed him.<\/p>\n
Sometimes I wondered whether he was asking me to spend the rest of my life waiting.<\/p>\n
I put the sticker on the kitchen counter.<\/p>\n
\u201cWho told you to start doing this today?\u201d<\/p>\n
Diane shrugged.<\/p>\n
\u201cNo one.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThen why today?\u201d<\/p>\n
She looked toward the hallway.<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause Dad isn't here to tell us what he wanted.\u201d<\/p>\n
Something inside me went cold.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou could have waited.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWe didn't want things disappearing.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThings?\u201d<\/p>\n
Her face changed slightly.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou know what I mean.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes,\u201d I said. \u201cI do.\u201d<\/p>\n
My sister came in from the kitchen carrying a tray.<\/p>\n
She stopped when she saw the three of us.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat happened?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNothing,\u201d Diane said.<\/p>\n
I looked at my sister.<\/p>\n
\u201cApparently we're inventorying Frank's belongings.\u201d<\/p>\n
My sister set the tray down slowly.<\/p>\n
\u201cAlready?\u201d<\/p>\n
Ross looked irritated.<\/p>\n
\u201cCan everybody stop acting like we're stealing something?\u201d<\/p>\n
Nobody answered.<\/p>\n
A child laughed somewhere upstairs. One of the neighbors had brought her grandchildren to the funeral, and they had been running through the hallway earlier. Now even their footsteps had gone quiet.<\/p>\n
Frank's house had never sounded so unfamiliar.<\/p>\n
I went into the bedroom and sat on the edge of the bed.<\/p>\n
His side was still untouched.<\/p>\n
The pillow had the shallow indentation where his head had rested the night before he died. His reading glasses were on the nightstand. Beside them was the small bottle of water I had placed there during his final week.<\/p>\n
I picked up the glasses.<\/p>\n
My hands began to shake.<\/p>\n
For nineteen years, Frank had been the person I called when something went wrong.<\/p>\n
Now there was no one to call.<\/p>\n
I closed my eyes.<\/p>\n
I remembered the last night.<\/p>\n
He had been too weak to sit up. His breathing came in short, uneven pulls. I had held his hand until his fingers stopped squeezing mine.<\/p>\n
Just before dawn, he opened his eyes.<\/p>\n
\u201cEileen.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m here.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDon't fight them.\u201d<\/p>\n
I had thought the medication was making him confused.<\/p>\n
\u201cFight who?\u201d<\/p>\n
He took a breath.<\/p>\n
\u201cAfter.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAfter what?\u201d<\/p>\n
He had looked toward the bedroom door.<\/p>\n
\u201cThe funeral.\u201d<\/p>\n
I leaned closer.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat about the funeral?\u201d<\/p>\n
His voice had been barely audible.<\/p>\n
\u201cLet them get angry.\u201d<\/p>\n
I had frowned.<\/p>\n
\u201cFrank, you're scaring me.\u201d<\/p>\n
He squeezed my hand.<\/p>\n
\u201cTrust me.\u201d<\/p>\n
That was all.<\/p>\n
Now, standing in the room without him, I wondered what he had known.<\/p>\n
When I returned to the living room, Diane had added three more stickers.<\/p>\n
One was on the lamp.<\/p>\n
One was on a framed painting.<\/p>\n
The last was on the wooden cabinet Frank had built when we first moved into the house.<\/p>\n
\u201cTake them off,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n
Diane stared at me.<\/p>\n
\u201cExcuse me?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cTake the stickers off.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ross stepped between us.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou don't get to order us around.\u201d<\/p>\n
I looked at him.<\/p>\n
\u201cYour father was my husband.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe was our father.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
My voice softened.<\/p>\n
\u201cI never tried to take that away from you.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ross looked down.<\/p>\n
For one brief second, I saw the little boy he had once been. Twelve years old, standing in our kitchen after his mother remarried, furious that another woman was sitting beside his father.<\/p>\n
Then the moment disappeared.<\/p>\n
He straightened.<\/p>\n
\u201cDad told us this house would always be ours.\u201d<\/p>\n
My stomach tightened.<\/p>\n
\u201cDid he?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThose exact words?\u201d<\/p>\n
Ross hesitated.<\/p>\n
Diane answered for him.<\/p>\n
\u201cHe said we would never be left with nothing.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat isn't the same thing.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt is to us.\u201d<\/p>\n
I looked around the room.<\/p>\n
The photographs. The shelves. Frank's chair.<\/p>\n
Nineteen years of marriage were sitting in front of me, and somehow his children had already reduced everything to objects they could carry away.<\/p>\n
My sister touched my shoulder.<\/p>\n
\u201cCome into the kitchen.\u201d<\/p>\n
I followed her.<\/p>\n
She lowered her voice.<\/p>\n
\u201cAre you all right?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou don't have to let them do this.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI don't know what Frank arranged.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou mean the will?\u201d<\/p>\n
I nodded.<\/p>\n
Frank had refused to discuss it with me in detail.<\/p>\n
Every time I asked, he would smile and say, \u201cYou'll know when you need to know.\u201d<\/p>\n
I had hated that sentence.<\/p>\n
Now I hated it more.<\/p>\n
My sister looked toward the doorway.<\/p>\n
\u201cWho was that man at the funeral?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat man?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThe one standing near the back.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI didn't notice.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe wasn't with Diane or Ross.\u201d<\/p>\n
I remembered seeing him.<\/p>\n
Tall. Gray suit. Quiet.<\/p>\n
He had stood alone during the service.<\/p>\n
At the time, I assumed he was someone from Frank's business.<\/p>\n
My sister continued.<\/p>\n
\u201cHe kept looking at you.\u201d<\/p>\n
Before I could answer, the doorbell rang.<\/p>\n
Everyone in the living room turned.<\/p>\n
Diane looked annoyed.<\/p>\n
Ross looked suspicious.<\/p>\n
I wiped my hands against my dress and walked to the door.<\/p>\n
A man stood outside holding a black briefcase.<\/p>\n
He looked to be in his early fifties. His silvering hair was neatly combed, and his suit seemed too formal for the casual gathering after a funeral.<\/p>\n
\u201cMrs. Coleman?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMy name is Michael Grant.\u201d<\/p>\n
He glanced past me.<\/p>\n
\u201cI'm here because Frank asked me to be.\u201d<\/p>\n
My fingers tightened around the doorknob.<\/p>\n
\u201cFrank?\u201d<\/p>\n
Michael nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cHe left instructions.\u201d<\/p>\n
Behind me, I heard Ross mutter something under his breath.<\/p>\n
Michael looked at the pink and blue stickers scattered around the room.<\/p>\n
Then he looked back at me.<\/p>\n
His expression barely changed.<\/p>\n
But there was something in his eyes that made my stomach drop.<\/p>\n
He had expected this.<\/p>\n
\u201cMay I come in?\u201d<\/p>\n
I stepped aside.<\/p>\n
Michael entered.<\/p>\n
He placed the briefcase on the coffee table.<\/p>\n
Two locks clicked open.<\/p>\n
The room became completely still.<\/p>\n
And for the first time since Frank died, I understood that the funeral had not been the end of anything.<\/p>\n
It had been the beginning.<\/p>\n
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