I used to believe that once you grew old enough, the people who hurt you when you were young lost the power to reach you.<\/p>\n
I was wrong.<\/p>\n
At seventy-three, I discovered that one familiar laugh could still take me back more than fifty years.<\/p>\n
It happened at my fifty-fifth high school reunion.<\/p>\n
And it began with an apron.<\/p>\n
The woman who handed it to me was Brenda Vance.<\/p>\n
She had spent four years making my life miserable at Oakridge High School.<\/p>\n
Apparently, fifty-five years had not changed her very much.<\/p>\n
But before I tell you what happened in that ballroom, I need to explain something about the girl I used to be.<\/p>\n
I was not particularly noticeable in high school.<\/p>\n
I wasn't popular.<\/p>\n
I didn't have expensive clothes or a car waiting for me after classes.<\/p>\n
Most days, I wore whatever my mother could afford to keep clean and repair.<\/p>\n
My father had died when I was eleven.<\/p>\n
After that, my mother worked two jobs to keep our little household running.<\/p>\n
She came home tired, sometimes barely able to stand, but she still found time to cook dinner and make sure I had everything I needed for school.<\/p>\n
We didn't have much.<\/p>\n
That was something Brenda seemed to notice before anyone else.<\/p>\n
She could recognize the same dress from across a crowded hallway.<\/p>\n
And she never missed an opportunity to announce it.<\/p>\n
One morning, I walked into school wearing a green floral dress that had belonged to my older cousin.<\/p>\n
Brenda looked me up and down.<\/p>\n
"Didn't you wear that last week?"<\/p>\n
I tried to keep walking.<\/p>\n
She called after me.<\/p>\n
"Or was it the week before? I've lost count."<\/p>\n
Her friends laughed.<\/p>\n
I pretended I hadn't heard them.<\/p>\n
That became my usual response.<\/p>\n
Look down.<\/p>\n
Keep walking.<\/p>\n
Don't give her anything else to laugh about.<\/p>\n
It rarely worked.<\/p>\n
My mother never understood why I came home so quiet.<\/p>\n
She thought I was simply tired from school.<\/p>\n
She didn't know that I had learned to avoid certain hallways because Brenda liked to stand there with her friends.<\/p>\n
She didn't know that I sometimes waited until the cafeteria was nearly empty before getting lunch.<\/p>\n
I didn't want her worrying about things she couldn't afford to fix.<\/p>\n
She already had enough problems.<\/p>\n
One thing my mother did teach me was sewing.<\/p>\n
She had learned it from her own mother.<\/p>\n
She believed a piece of fabric deserved another chance before anyone threw it away.<\/p>\n
She could turn an old curtain into something useful.<\/p>\n
She could repair a torn sleeve so neatly that nobody would notice.<\/p>\n
And she could take a dress that looked hopeless and make it wearable again.<\/p>\n
I watched her work at our kitchen table.<\/p>\n
Sometimes I helped.<\/p>\n
She taught me how to thread a needle, measure a hem, and keep my fingers away from the machine.<\/p>\n
I didn't realize then how much those evenings would shape the rest of my life.<\/p>\n
My mother never called our circumstances embarrassing.<\/p>\n
She called them temporary.<\/p>\n
I wish I had believed her sooner.<\/p>\n
The worst humiliation came during my junior year.<\/p>\n
It was prom season.<\/p>\n
Most of the girls were talking about dresses, shoes, flowers, and which boys had asked them to go.<\/p>\n
I wasn't expecting anything special.<\/p>\n
There was no money for a store-bought gown.<\/p>\n
My mother knew that.<\/p>\n
One evening, she brought out a piece of blue-check cotton that my grandmother had saved.<\/p>\n
It had originally been intended for a tablecloth.<\/p>\n
My mother spread it across the kitchen table.<\/p>\n
"Do you think we could make something out of this?"<\/p>\n
I looked at the fabric.<\/p>\n
Then I looked at her.<\/p>\n
She smiled.<\/p>\n
"Only if you want to."<\/p>\n
I didn't answer immediately.<\/p>\n
Part of me wanted a dress that looked like the ones in the department store windows.<\/p>\n
But another part wanted to believe that we could make something beautiful with what we had.<\/p>\n
So I agreed.<\/p>\n
We spent three weekends working on it.<\/p>\n
The kitchen became our little sewing room.<\/p>\n
There were scraps of thread near the stove, paper patterns beside the salt shaker, and pins scattered across the table.<\/p>\n
The zipper gave us trouble.<\/p>\n
One sleeve had to be removed and sewn again.<\/p>\n
The waistline never became perfectly even.<\/p>\n
My mother kept adjusting it until she was satisfied enough to let me try it on.<\/p>\n
When I stepped away from the mirror, she stopped moving.<\/p>\n
She covered her mouth with one hand.<\/p>\n
"Oh, Martha. Look at you."<\/p>\n
I looked down at the dress.<\/p>\n
It wasn't perfect.<\/p>\n
But it fit.<\/p>\n
And for the first time in a long while, I felt pretty.<\/p>\n
My mother walked over and straightened one shoulder.<\/p>\n
"You look wonderful."<\/p>\n
I believed her.<\/p>\n
That was what made the next part hurt so much.<\/p>\n
A quiet boy named Tommy Mercer had asked me to the dance.<\/p>\n
He wasn't popular either.<\/p>\n
He was polite, soft-spoken, and usually spent his lunch period reading.<\/p>\n
I had been nervous when he arrived at our house.<\/p>\n
My mother answered the door and welcomed him inside.<\/p>\n
She seemed almost happier than I was.<\/p>\n
Tommy looked at my dress and told me it was nice.<\/p>\n
I smiled.<\/p>\n
For a little while, the evening went better than I had imagined.<\/p>\n
The gymnasium was decorated with paper streamers.<\/p>\n
Music played from speakers near the stage.<\/p>\n
The other students were laughing and dancing.<\/p>\n
I thought perhaps I could simply enjoy myself.<\/p>\n
Then Brenda noticed me.<\/p>\n
She walked over while Tommy and I were standing near the dance floor.<\/p>\n
Her eyes moved over my dress.<\/p>\n
She reached out and pinched the sleeve between two fingers.<\/p>\n
"Tommy, did you know Martha made this herself?"<\/p>\n
I felt my stomach tighten.<\/p>\n
He looked at her.<\/p>\n
Brenda raised her voice.<\/p>\n
"Apparently, it used to be a tablecloth."<\/p>\n
A few people turned toward us.<\/p>\n
Then she smiled.<\/p>\n
"Maybe she can use it to cover the refreshment table when we're finished dancing."<\/p>\n
The laughter came quickly.<\/p>\n
Not everyone laughed.<\/p>\n
But enough people did.<\/p>\n
I looked at Tommy.<\/p>\n
I wanted him to say something.<\/p>\n
Anything.<\/p>\n
He opened his mouth, then gave a nervous little laugh.<\/p>\n
He didn't defend me.<\/p>\n
He didn't even tell Brenda to stop.<\/p>\n
That hurt more than the joke.<\/p>\n
I stepped away from him.<\/p>\n
Nobody followed.<\/p>\n
I left the gymnasium without saying goodbye.<\/p>\n
The walk home was nearly two miles.<\/p>\n
It was cold, and I hadn't brought my coat because I thought Tommy would take me home.<\/p>\n
I kept my arms folded across my chest.<\/p>\n
By the time I reached our house, my hands were numb.<\/p>\n
My mother found me sitting on the front porch.<\/p>\n
She came outside immediately.<\/p>\n
"Martha? What happened?"<\/p>\n
I tried to answer.<\/p>\n
Instead, I started crying.<\/p>\n
She sat beside me and put her arm around my shoulders.<\/p>\n
I told her about Brenda.<\/p>\n
I told her about the dress.<\/p>\n
I told her about Tommy laughing.<\/p>\n
Then I said something I would remember for the rest of my life.<\/p>\n
"I never want to wear that dress again."<\/p>\n
My mother didn't argue.<\/p>\n
She simply held me for a moment.<\/p>\n
Then she looked toward the dark street.<\/p>\n
"There was nothing wrong with what you wore tonight."<\/p>\n
I wiped my face.<\/p>\n
"Everybody laughed."<\/p>\n
"That doesn't make them right."<\/p>\n
I stared at the porch steps.<\/p>\n
My mother squeezed my shoulder.<\/p>\n
"Don't let another person's cruelty convince you that something good is worthless."<\/p>\n
I was too young to understand what she meant.<\/p>\n
All I knew was that I never wanted to see Brenda Vance again.<\/p>\n
I kept that promise for a long time.<\/p>\n
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