Austin insisted on paying for lunch.<\/p>\n
I let him.<\/p>\n
That sounds insignificant.<\/p>\n
It was not.<\/p>\n
For years, if he reached for a bill, I had usually stopped him before his hand touched it.<\/p>\n
Don't be ridiculous.<\/p>\n
We\u2019ve got this.<\/p>\n
Save your money.<\/p>\n
Each phrase had sounded generous.<\/p>\n
Each one also told him the same quiet thing: your money matters less than ours because you are still the child at this table.<\/p>\n
Now the waiter placed the check between us.<\/p>\n
Austin picked it up.<\/p>\n
I reached for my water instead.<\/p>\n
He noticed.<\/p>\n
\u201cNothing?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo fight?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWould you prefer one?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThen pay.\u201d<\/p>\n
He smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cThis feels suspiciously easy.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGrowth is disappointing that way.\u201d<\/p>\n
Lunch itself was ordinary.<\/p>\n
Sandwiches.<\/p>\n
Coffee.<\/p>\n
A piece of pie Austin ordered because Ernest always ordered pie after anything involving banks, attorneys or medical appointments.<\/p>\n
\u201cDad said stressful paperwork burned sugar.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe invented medical science whenever dessert was involved.\u201d<\/p>\n
Austin took a bite.<\/p>\n
Then his expression changed.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThe nine hundred dollars.\u201d<\/p>\n
I knew immediately.<\/p>\n
The rent Ernest had secretly paid when Austin was twenty-four.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat about it?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI want to do what he said.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHelp someone.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWithout solving everything.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
I leaned back.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou mentioned a coworker.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMarcus.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat happened?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cTransmission went out.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOuch.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cRepair estimate is about twenty-three hundred.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd he has?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMaybe eight hundred saved.\u201d<\/p>\n
I could already see the trap.<\/p>\n
\u201cSo what are you thinking?\u201d<\/p>\n
Austin looked cautious.<\/p>\n
\u201cI could cover the rest.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHow much did Ernest say?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNine hundred.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd how much are you planning to give?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cFifteen hundred.\u201d<\/p>\n
I smiled.<\/p>\n
He frowned.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNothing.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat is absolutely something.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m observing.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cObserving what?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThe hereditary nature of overhelping.\u201d<\/p>\n
He stared at me.<\/p>\n
Then laughed.<\/p>\n
\u201cOh, come on.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYour father gives you a specific lesson about helping without taking over, and within twenty-four hours you've increased the amount by sixty-six percent.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI can afford it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThere it is.\u201d<\/p>\n
Austin pointed at me.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou use that phrase too.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes, because sometimes it is relevant.\u201d<\/p>\n
Marcus's problem was real.<\/p>\n
Transportation mattered.<\/p>\n
Austin wanted to help.<\/p>\n
None of that was wrong.<\/p>\n
The danger was familiar.<\/p>\n
Once you knew you could remove someone's difficulty, restraint could feel cruel.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat does Marcus want?\u201d I asked.<\/p>\n
Austin hesitated.<\/p>\n
\u201cI haven't asked him.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cInteresting.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know he needs the car.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat isn't what I asked.\u201d<\/p>\n
He sighed.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re enjoying this.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDeeply.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat am I supposed to say? \u2018Hey, my dead father wants me to give somebody nine hundred dollars, are you interested?\u2019\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cPerhaps leave Ernest out.\u201d<\/p>\n
Austin laughed.<\/p>\n
I became serious.<\/p>\n
\u201cAsk Marcus what would actually help.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI already know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou know what you would do.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s different?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cVery.\u201d<\/p>\n
He looked unconvinced.<\/p>\n
I recognized the expression because I had worn it for decades.<\/p>\n
Helping felt morally pure until someone suggested the recipient should have a say.<\/p>\n
Then generosity had to surrender control.<\/p>\n
After lunch, Austin returned to Atlanta.<\/p>\n
I remained in Miami one more night because my Savannah viewing had been moved two days later.<\/p>\n
That evening, he called.<\/p>\n
\u201cFine.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI asked.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMarcus?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe doesn't want fifteen hundred dollars.\u201d<\/p>\n
I laughed.<\/p>\n
\u201cImagine.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe doesn't want nine hundred either.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat does he want?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThree hundred.\u201d<\/p>\n
That surprised me.<\/p>\n
\u201cFor what?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cTo cover the last part of a used transmission he's buying from a salvage yard. His brother can install it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSo your rescue operation shrank.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSignificantly.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHow do you feel?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWeirdly rejected.\u201d<\/p>\n
I laughed harder.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat's useful information.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause maybe the size of the gift was partly about you.\u201d<\/p>\n
Austin became quiet.<\/p>\n
\u201cI wanted to do something Dad would approve of.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThere it is.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou can still help Marcus.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI am.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd Ernest is still dead.\u201d<\/p>\n
He winced.<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSo his approval cannot be the point.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cRight.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat will you do with the other six hundred?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI don't know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cKeep it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat feels wrong.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause Dad said nine hundred.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYour father also said he wasn't leaving instructions.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat was after leaving several.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cFair.\u201d<\/p>\n
Austin smiled.<\/p>\n
Then said, \u201cI might put the rest aside.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cFor what?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSomeone else.\u201d<\/p>\n
I liked that.<\/p>\n
Not because it fulfilled Ernest\u2019s instruction precisely.<\/p>\n
Because Austin had turned a symbolic repayment into a habit of restrained generosity rather than one dramatic gesture.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat seems sensible.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHigh praise.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDon't get used to it.\u201d<\/p>\n
The next morning, I met Iris for coffee.<\/p>\n
She had the land-sale paperwork.<\/p>\n
The six acres in North Carolina were already attracting interest from a neighboring property owner.<\/p>\n
\u201cOffer is reasonable,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n
\u201cTake it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDon't want to visit?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cStill sure?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
She slid the papers over.<\/p>\n
I signed.<\/p>\n
No pilgrimage.<\/p>\n
No photograph.<\/p>\n
No attempt to fulfill a mountain-cabin fantasy Ernest had forgotten before I did.<\/p>\n
Iris watched me.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou've become efficient about sentiment.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat sounds terrible.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI mean selective.\u201d<\/p>\n
That felt better.<\/p>\n
I looked at the documents.<\/p>\n
\u201cI'm keeping the wedding bands.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThe cassette.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThe notebook.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThe music box.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat wasn't Ernest\u2019s.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo, but it belongs with him in my head.\u201d<\/p>\n
Iris nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd the land?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cCan become someone else's problem.\u201d<\/p>\n
She smiled.<\/p>\n
The Savannah trip happened two days later.<\/p>\n
I flew from Miami.<\/p>\n
Marjorie met me there.<\/p>\n
She had driven down from Charleston after spending three days touring neighborhoods.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou look suspiciously happy,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n
\u201cI found a bungalow.\u201d<\/p>\n
I stopped on the sidewalk.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou bought it?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThank God.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI made an offer.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMarjorie.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou lectured me about impulsive real estate.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI contain multitudes.\u201d<\/p>\n
I laughed.<\/p>\n
Then she grabbed my arm.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou're seeing yours at two.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAre you nervous?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cVery.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGood.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cStop saying that.\u201d<\/p>\n
The condominium looked almost exactly like the photographs.<\/p>\n
That disappointed me slightly.<\/p>\n
I wanted an excuse to reject it.<\/p>\n
The building was older.<\/p>\n
Brick.<\/p>\n
Tall windows.<\/p>\n
The hallway smelled faintly of old wood and floor polish.<\/p>\n
Inside, afternoon light crossed worn hardwood floors.<\/p>\n
The kitchen really was small.<\/p>\n
The balcony overlooked live oaks.<\/p>\n
I stepped outside.<\/p>\n
Below, people walked dogs.<\/p>\n
A bicycle passed.<\/p>\n
Somewhere nearby, church bells rang.<\/p>\n
I liked it immediately.<\/p>\n
That frightened me.<\/p>\n
The real-estate agent talked about association fees, plumbing updates and parking.<\/p>\n
I heard perhaps half.<\/p>\n
Marjorie wandered into the second bedroom.<\/p>\n
\u201cYour granddaughter fits.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBarely.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cPerfect.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDo not encourage her.\u201d<\/p>\n
She opened the closet.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou could put Ernest's things here.\u201d<\/p>\n
The sentence stopped me.<\/p>\n
Ernest\u2019s things.<\/p>\n
The storage unit in Miami contained boxes.<\/p>\n
His clothes.<\/p>\n
Books.<\/p>\n
Tools I had not given Austin.<\/p>\n
Papers.<\/p>\n
Photographs.<\/p>\n
Objects I had postponed deciding about because the ship made postponement easy.<\/p>\n
A home would require choices.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d Marjorie asked.<\/p>\n
\u201cNothing.\u201d<\/p>\n
She knew better.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou thought buying a place meant choosing what comes with you.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou can keep the storage unit.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI don't want my marriage living in a warehouse indefinitely.\u201d<\/p>\n
Marjorie looked around.<\/p>\n
\u201cThen maybe that's part of moving.\u201d<\/p>\n
I returned to the balcony.<\/p>\n
The agent joined me.<\/p>\n
\u201cNo pressure,\u201d she said, which usually meant pressure existed.<\/p>\n
I smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m not buying today.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOf course.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThere are other interested buyers?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat's fine.\u201d<\/p>\n
She seemed surprised.<\/p>\n
So was I.<\/p>\n
I liked the condo.<\/p>\n
But liking something did not require possessing it immediately.<\/p>\n
That evening, Marjorie and I ate outside.<\/p>\n
She showed me photos of the Charleston bungalow.<\/p>\n
Small garden.<\/p>\n
Blue shutters.<\/p>\n
No stairs.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou'll buy it,\u201d I said.<\/p>\n
\u201cProbably.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy Charleston?\u201d<\/p>\n
She thought.<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause I woke up yesterday and wanted to stay.\u201d<\/p>\n
That answer stayed with me.<\/p>\n
Wanting to stay.<\/p>\n
Not needing.<\/p>\n
Not being needed.<\/p>\n
Wanting.<\/p>\n
When I returned to Atlanta the following day, Austin picked me up.<\/p>\n
\u201cHow was Savannah?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI liked it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHow much?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat is not a measurement.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou know what I mean.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cEnough to go back.\u201d<\/p>\n
He smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cGood.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou don't sound disappointed.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI am.\u201d<\/p>\n
He surprised me.<\/p>\n
\u201cBut I'm trying not to make my feelings your instructions.\u201d<\/p>\n
I looked at him.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s annoyingly mature.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cTherapy.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cExpensive wisdom.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWorth it.\u201d<\/p>\n
On the drive, he told me about Marcus.<\/p>\n
The used transmission had worked.<\/p>\n
Marcus insisted on repaying the three hundred over several months.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat did you say?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat he didn't have to.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe said he wanted to.\u201d<\/p>\n
I nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cThen let him.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s what I said.\u201d<\/p>\n
Austin smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cDad's nine hundred might eventually become the most complicated three hundred dollars in history.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cProbably.\u201d<\/p>\n
Then he said, \u201cI figured out what to do with the rest.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNothing.\u201d<\/p>\n
I looked over.<\/p>\n
\u201cNothing?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cKeep it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause I don't need to manufacture somebody else's emergency so I can feel generous.\u201d<\/p>\n
I laughed.<\/p>\n
\u201cWho are you?\u201d<\/p>\n
He grinned.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s basically what my therapist said.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou should stop paying her and call me.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAbsolutely not.\u201d<\/p>\n
At his house, Maya met me at the door.<\/p>\n
She had homework.<\/p>\n
Austin and Chloe were both making dinner.<\/p>\n
Nobody asked me to do anything.<\/p>\n
I sat at the table.<\/p>\n
At first, the stillness felt awkward.<\/p>\n
Then Maya slid a worksheet toward me.<\/p>\n
\u201cCan you help?\u201d<\/p>\n
Math.<\/p>\n
I hated math.<\/p>\n
\u201cI am the wrong grandparent.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGrandpa was good at it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou can still try.\u201d<\/p>\n
I looked at the fraction problem.<\/p>\n
Helping.<\/p>\n
Not rescuing.<\/p>\n
Apparently even fourth-grade homework could become a moral test.<\/p>\n
\u201cShow me what you already did.\u201d<\/p>\n
Maya pointed.<\/p>\n
She had made one mistake.<\/p>\n
I nearly corrected it.<\/p>\n
Instead, I asked where she thought the numbers changed.<\/p>\n
She stared.<\/p>\n
Then found it herself.<\/p>\n
\u201cOh.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cExactly.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat was easy.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy didn't you just tell me?\u201d<\/p>\n
I smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause then you would've missed the part where you figured it out.\u201d<\/p>\n
She frowned at me.<\/p>\n
Then returned to the worksheet.<\/p>\n
A minute later Austin walked past.<\/p>\n
He had heard.<\/p>\n
Our eyes met.<\/p>\n
Neither of us said anything.<\/p>\n
We did not need to.<\/p>\n
The lesson had become embarrassingly portable.<\/p>\n
Later, while Chloe washed vegetables, she asked about Savannah.<\/p>\n
\u201cI liked it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAre you moving?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMaybe.\u201d<\/p>\n
She nodded.<\/p>\n
No disappointment performed.<\/p>\n
No pressure.<\/p>\n
Then she said, \u201cIf you do, can Maya spend a week with you this summer?\u201d<\/p>\n
I paused.<\/p>\n
There it was.<\/p>\n
A request involving my time.<\/p>\n
My home.<\/p>\n
My granddaughter.<\/p>\n
The old Theresa would have answered before considering anything.<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
Chloe smiled.<\/p>\n
Then I held up a finger.<\/p>\n
\u201cIf it works for me then.\u201d<\/p>\n
Her smile changed.<\/p>\n
\u201cRight.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI want her.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBut we plan it together.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAbsolutely.\u201d<\/p>\n
That felt good.<\/p>\n
Not defensive.<\/p>\n
Clear.<\/p>\n
After dinner, Austin walked me home again.<\/p>\n
Halfway there, he said, \u201cI think I did something wrong.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMarcus.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHow?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI've been checking on him every day.\u201d<\/p>\n
I laughed.<\/p>\n
\u201cOf course you have.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI just want to make sure the transmission works.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo. You want evidence your help succeeded.\u201d<\/p>\n
He groaned.<\/p>\n
\u201cI hate this family analysis thing.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cUseful, isn't it?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSo what do I do?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cStop checking.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat's it?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat if something goes wrong?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThen he knows your number.\u201d<\/p>\n
Austin thought.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat feels negligent.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt isn't.\u201d<\/p>\n
We reached my building.<\/p>\n
Before going inside, I said, \u201cYour father did this too.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAfter helping someone, he wanted updates.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSeriously?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cConstantly.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat makes me feel better.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt shouldn't.\u201d<\/p>\n
He laughed.<\/p>\n
Then hugged me.<\/p>\n
\u201cGoodnight, Mom.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGoodnight.\u201d<\/p>\n
In the apartment, I opened my laptop.<\/p>\n
The Savannah listing remained bookmarked.<\/p>\n
I stared at the balcony.<\/p>\n
The small kitchen.<\/p>\n
The second bedroom.<\/p>\n
Iris had sent projected costs.<\/p>\n
Affordable.<\/p>\n
Manageable.<\/p>\n
Mine, if I wanted it.<\/p>\n
I closed the laptop.<\/p>\n
Not tonight.<\/p>\n
For once, wanting something did not require immediate proof.<\/p>\n
The next morning, I woke to a message from the realtor.<\/p>\n
Another offer had been submitted.<\/p>\n
If I wanted the condominium, I would have to decide by noon.<\/p>\n
I read the message twice.<\/p>\n
Old urgency rose instantly.<\/p>\n
Buy it before someone else does.<\/p>\n
Protect the option.<\/p>\n
Secure the future.<\/p>\n
I made coffee.<\/p>\n
Sat by the window.<\/p>\n
Called nobody.<\/p>\n
At eleven-forty, I sent my answer.<\/p>\n
Let them have it.<\/p>\n
The realtor responded almost immediately.<\/p>\n
Are you sure?<\/p>\n
No, I wrote.<\/p>\n
But I'm not buying a home because a clock frightened me.<\/p>\n
I put down the phone.<\/p>\n
The loss hurt.<\/p>\n
That surprised me.<\/p>\n
I had liked the place.<\/p>\n
Maybe I had loved the possibility.<\/p>\n
But the pain did not mean the decision was wrong.<\/p>\n
Some choices were not between good and bad.<\/p>\n
Sometimes they were between wanting something and wanting to choose it freely.<\/p>\n
That afternoon, Austin stopped by.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou didn't get the condo?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSomeone outbid you?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI didn't bid.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy?\u201d<\/p>\n
I told him.<\/p>\n
He looked disappointed for me.<\/p>\n
\u201cI'm sorry.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMe too.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou could have afforded it.\u201d<\/p>\n
I raised an eyebrow.<\/p>\n
He caught himself.<\/p>\n
\u201cRight.\u201d<\/p>\n
We both laughed.<\/p>\n
Then he said, \u201cYou'll find another.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cProbably.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd if you don't?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI'll rent.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou hate renting.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI used to hate uncertainty more.\u201d<\/p>\n
He leaned against the counter.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou really changed.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSo did you.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cStill changing.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
Then he looked at me carefully.<\/p>\n
\u201cMom?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIf you never find the perfect place, don't move here just because it's easy.\u201d<\/p>\n
I stared at him.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat isn't a very good sales pitch for Atlanta.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI want you here.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBut I don't want to become your reason again.\u201d<\/p>\n
The sentence touched something deep.<\/p>\n
Not because he rejected me.<\/p>\n
Because he understood.<\/p>\n
\u201cI won't.\u201d<\/p>\n
He nodded.<\/p>\n
And for the first time, I believed both of us.<\/p>\n
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