Nathan\u2019s last winter began with pneumonia.<\/p>\n
We did not know it was his last winter.<\/p>\n
That mattered.<\/p>\n
Retrospective knowledge makes people imagine final days differently from how they are actually lived.<\/p>\n
At first, it was an infection.<\/p>\n
Antibiotics.<\/p>\n
Hospitalization.<\/p>\n
Recovery expected.<\/p>\n
Nathan complained about the food.<\/p>\n
Good sign.<\/p>\n
His granddaughter brought him a blanket.<\/p>\n
Evan brought the medication list.<\/p>\n
I brought nothing because I had finally learned hospitals already possessed chairs and water.<\/p>\n
Nathan looked thinner.<\/p>\n
That worried me.<\/p>\n
He was also nearly eighty.<\/p>\n
Age had become something we could no longer treat as a surprise.<\/p>\n
After six days, the pneumonia improved.<\/p>\n
Then doctors found something else.<\/p>\n
Cancer.<\/p>\n
Advanced.<\/p>\n
The word rearranged the room.<\/p>\n
Nathan listened without interrupting.<\/p>\n
Evan asked questions.<\/p>\n
Stage.<\/p>\n
Treatment options.<\/p>\n
Goals.<\/p>\n
Risks.<\/p>\n
Time.<\/p>\n
The oncologist answered carefully.<\/p>\n
There were treatments that might slow progression.<\/p>\n
Maybe months.<\/p>\n
Possibly longer.<\/p>\n
Cure was not realistic.<\/p>\n
Nathan looked toward the window.<\/p>\n
Then asked, \u201cWill treatment make me feel worse?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cPossibly.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHow much?\u201d<\/p>\n
Uncertain.<\/p>\n
\u201cWill it help me see better?\u201d<\/p>\n
The doctor smiled sadly.<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThen at least the problems are staying organized.\u201d<\/p>\n
That was Nathan.<\/p>\n
Everyone laughed because he wanted us to.<\/p>\n
Then we went home and fell apart privately.<\/p>\n
Evan called me that night.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m not ready.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat do we do?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAsk him.\u201d<\/p>\n
The answer surprised both of us despite everything we had learned.<\/p>\n
Ask Nathan what he wanted.<\/p>\n
Not what fear wanted.<\/p>\n
Not what we could technically demand from medicine.<\/p>\n
Not what counted as fighting.<\/p>\n
Nathan met with oncology twice.<\/p>\n
Palliative care once.<\/p>\n
Cardiology because apparently his heart insisted on remaining part of every discussion.<\/p>\n
Then he chose limited treatment aimed at preserving quality of life.<\/p>\n
No aggressive regimen with low probability of meaningful extension.<\/p>\n
Evan struggled.<\/p>\n
Not openly at first.<\/p>\n
He read studies.<\/p>\n
Found trials.<\/p>\n
Printed articles.<\/p>\n
Nathan noticed the stack.<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou haven\u2019t read them.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI read enough.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThis one\u2014\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDad.\u201d<\/p>\n
Nathan sat back.<\/p>\n
His vision had worsened enough that he could not see Evan\u2019s expression clearly across the room.<\/p>\n
His voice remained steady.<\/p>\n
\u201cAre you giving me information or trying to change my decision?\u201d<\/p>\n
Evan stopped.<\/p>\n
That question belonged to the entire family.<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThen figure it out before the next article.\u201d<\/p>\n
Evan left angry.<\/p>\n
Not at Nathan exactly.<\/p>\n
At mortality.<\/p>\n
Mortality is difficult to argue with, so we choose people instead.<\/p>\n
He came to my townhouse.<\/p>\n
Dropped the papers on the table.<\/p>\n
\u201cHe could get more time.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMaybe.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe should try.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat is not your decision.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you?\u201d<\/p>\n
He glared.<\/p>\n
\u201cDon\u2019t do that.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDo what?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cTurn this into a lesson about Charles.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI wasn\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n
He sat.<\/p>\n
\u201cI hate this.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe finally became my dad and now\u2014\u201d<\/p>\n
I waited.<\/p>\n
Evan corrected himself.<\/p>\n
\u201cNo. That\u2019s not fair. He has been my dad for decades.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt still feels short.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe missed nine years.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t want cancer taking more.\u201d<\/p>\n
There it was.<\/p>\n
Time again.<\/p>\n
The old accounting.<\/p>\n
Missing years.<\/p>\n
Years recovered.<\/p>\n
Years threatened.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou cannot make medicine repay the nine years.\u201d<\/p>\n
Evan covered his face.<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cKnowing and feeling are different.\u201d<\/p>\n
He laughed once behind his hands.<\/p>\n
\u201cI hate this family.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo, you don\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
He lowered his hands.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat if he regrets not trying?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThen that will be his regret.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat if I regret not pushing?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat will be yours.\u201d<\/p>\n
Cruel answer.<\/p>\n
True answer.<\/p>\n
Love does not prevent regret.<\/p>\n
It only changes which regrets belong to whom.<\/p>\n
Evan returned to Nathan the next morning.<\/p>\n
He brought no articles.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m scared.\u201d<\/p>\n
Nathan nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cSo am I.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI want you to do everything.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBut you don\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy?\u201d<\/p>\n
Nathan answered carefully.<\/p>\n
\u201cI want treatment that helps me remain myself longer. I do not want to spend whatever time I have proving I fought hard enough.\u201d<\/p>\n
Evan cried.<\/p>\n
Nathan could hear it more easily than see it.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m sorry.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDon\u2019t apologize.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI hate hurting you.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re not doing this to me.\u201d<\/p>\n
Important sentence.<\/p>\n
Cancer was happening.<\/p>\n
Nathan was choosing within it.<\/p>\n
Not choosing cancer.<\/p>\n
Evan moved closer.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat do you need?\u201d<\/p>\n
Nathan smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cRides.\u201d<\/p>\n
Evan laughed through tears.<\/p>\n
\u201cOkay.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd someone to read small print.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOkay.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd your mother\u2019s pancake recipe.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMy grandmother\u2019s.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou know what I mean.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo one knows what you mean about pancakes.\u201d<\/p>\n
That settled something.<\/p>\n
Treatment began.<\/p>\n
Mild enough that Nathan remained home most of the time.<\/p>\n
He tired easily.<\/p>\n
Lost weight.<\/p>\n
His eyesight continued declining independently.<\/p>\n
The world narrowed visually while family filled more of the space around him.<\/p>\n
His granddaughter visited often.<\/p>\n
Not constantly.<\/p>\n
Nathan forbade that.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou have work.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI can work here.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSometimes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGrandpa.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI will not become your entire schedule.\u201d<\/p>\n
She rolled her eyes.<\/p>\n
He smiled.<\/p>\n
They negotiated.<\/p>\n
Showing up without disappearing into caregiving.<\/p>\n
The lesson kept repeating.<\/p>\n
Nathan asked one thing of the family.<\/p>\n
\u201cNo archive work.\u201d<\/p>\n
Everyone looked confused.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat do you mean?\u201d Evan asked.<\/p>\n
\u201cI mean I do not want my final months recorded like a case file.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo one was going to.\u201d<\/p>\n
His granddaughter raised her hand slightly.<\/p>\n
\u201cI considered interviews.\u201d<\/p>\n
Nathan pointed toward her voice.<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOkay.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI mean it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI said okay.\u201d<\/p>\n
He relaxed.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou can take photographs. Normal ones.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat counts as normal?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNot me looking inspirational beside a window.\u201d<\/p>\n
Maya laughed.<\/p>\n
\u201cVery specific.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know this family.\u201d<\/p>\n
So we took normal pictures.<\/p>\n
Nathan asleep in a chair.<\/p>\n
Nathan eating soup.<\/p>\n
Nathan complaining about television subtitles.<\/p>\n
Nathan wearing two different socks because his vision made matching them difficult and he had stopped caring.<\/p>\n
Nathan laughing.<\/p>\n
No solemn portraits.<\/p>\n
One afternoon he asked me to sit with him while everyone else was gone.<\/p>\n
We sat in his condo.<\/p>\n
The frog photograph remained on the shelf.<\/p>\n
Emily at thirteen.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m afraid.\u201d<\/p>\n
He said it plainly.<\/p>\n
\u201cOf dying?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGood.\u201d<\/p>\n
He turned slightly.<\/p>\n
\u201cGood?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMeans you still want to be here.\u201d<\/p>\n
He smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cI knew you\u2019d say something unhelpful.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou called the correct person.\u201d<\/p>\n
We sat.<\/p>\n
\u201cI used to think I had already lost enough years that death would feel especially unfair.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDoes it?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cUnderstandable.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBut everyone probably thinks that.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cProbably.\u201d<\/p>\n
He touched the blanket across his knees.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m afraid Evan will make this about the nine years.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe already tried.\u201d<\/p>\n
Nathan laughed.<\/p>\n
\u201cOf course.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe stopped.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGood.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI told him medicine doesn\u2019t owe repayment.\u201d<\/p>\n
Nathan became quiet.<\/p>\n
\u201cThank you.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou would have told him.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cEventually.\u201d<\/p>\n
We had fewer eventuals now.<\/p>\n
That changed how we spoke.<\/p>\n
Nathan continued.<\/p>\n
\u201cI have one request.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIf I get too sick to make decisions clearly, I want Evan to follow the directive.\u201d<\/p>\n
He had completed advance-care documents.<\/p>\n
Maya had reviewed them.<\/p>\n
Evan had seen them.<\/p>\n
Nathan did not want hospitalization for burdensome interventions if recovery to meaningful interaction was unlikely.<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe says he knows.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBut?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe is my son.\u201d<\/p>\n
I understood.<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you want me there if that happens?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI will be.\u201d<\/p>\n
He nodded.<\/p>\n
Then smiled faintly.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou realize this makes you backup enforcement.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI have extensive experience.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
We told Evan together.<\/p>\n
He was furious for five minutes.<\/p>\n
Then frightened.<\/p>\n
Then understood.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou think I won\u2019t follow it?\u201d<\/p>\n
Nathan answered.<\/p>\n
\u201cI think you might want to love me into one more intervention.\u201d<\/p>\n
Evan closed his eyes.<\/p>\n
That was exactly the risk.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019ll follow it.\u201d<\/p>\n
Nathan nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cGood.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cEven if I hate it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI expect that.\u201d<\/p>\n
The months shortened.<\/p>\n
Treatment slowed the cancer somewhat.<\/p>\n
Not enough.<\/p>\n
By late winter Nathan needed help with bathing.<\/p>\n
That humiliated him.<\/p>\n
Not because bodies were shameful.<\/p>\n
Because assistance made him feel watched.<\/p>\n
The home health aide who came twice a week understood immediately.<\/p>\n
She asked before every task.<\/p>\n
Nathan liked her.<\/p>\n
\u201cShe doesn\u2019t hover.\u201d<\/p>\n
High praise.<\/p>\n
Evan learned from her.<\/p>\n
He stopped entering without knocking.<\/p>\n
Stopped rearranging furniture unless asked.<\/p>\n
Stopped moving Nathan\u2019s belongings to \u201cbetter\u201d locations.<\/p>\n
Low vision made consistent placement essential anyway.<\/p>\n
One afternoon Nathan could not find his wallet.<\/p>\n
Evan reached automatically toward the drawer where he thought it should be.<\/p>\n
Then stopped.<\/p>\n
\u201cWant help?\u201d<\/p>\n
Nathan smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
Small victory.<\/p>\n
The granddaughter came on a snowy weekend.<\/p>\n
Nathan could no longer see her face clearly unless she sat close.<\/p>\n
She sat close.<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you know who I am?\u201d<\/p>\n
He looked offended.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou are the person who changed majors twice.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThree times.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cExactly.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cCan you see me?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSome.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIs that scary?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
She took his hand.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat do you want me to do?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cKeep talking.\u201d<\/p>\n
So she did.<\/p>\n
Not about death.<\/p>\n
Work.<\/p>\n
A ridiculous neighbor.<\/p>\n
A train delay.<\/p>\n
A recipe she ruined.<\/p>\n
Nathan listened.<\/p>\n
At one point she said, \u201cI don\u2019t know what to say.\u201d<\/p>\n
Nathan squeezed her hand.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re saying things.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNot important things.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThose are important.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ordinary conversation.<\/p>\n
The thing our family once had too little of because secrets filled every room.<\/p>\n
Now ordinary speech became the gift.<\/p>\n
One night Nathan called Evan at three in the morning.<\/p>\n
Breathing trouble.<\/p>\n
Evan came.<\/p>\n
So did the hospice nurse.<\/p>\n
The cancer had progressed.<\/p>\n
The nurse adjusted medication.<\/p>\n
Nathan stabilized enough to remain home.<\/p>\n
He had chosen home if possible.<\/p>\n
Evan sat beside him until sunrise.<\/p>\n
Nathan woke.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou stayed.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou didn\u2019t need to.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
That answer mattered.<\/p>\n
Choice.<\/p>\n
Not obligation.<\/p>\n
A day later Nathan asked Evan for the final postcard.<\/p>\n
The one written before Laura went to Emily\u2019s grave.<\/p>\n
Evan brought it from the archive.<\/p>\n
Nathan held the sleeve but could no longer read the words.<\/p>\n
\u201cRead it.\u201d<\/p>\n
Evan did.<\/p>\n
I am here.<\/p>\n
The sentence reached the room differently now.<\/p>\n
Nathan smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cI was very dramatic.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou were terrified.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSame thing sometimes.\u201d<\/p>\n
Evan reached the last line.<\/p>\n
If I leave again without trying, then being afraid is no longer the explanation. It becomes the choice.<\/p>\n
Nathan nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cKeep that.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s already yours.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
He turned his face toward his son\u2019s voice.<\/p>\n
\u201cKeep the meaning.\u201d<\/p>\n
Evan cried.<\/p>\n
Nathan continued.<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t mean always stay physically.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIf someone tells you to leave, leave.\u201d<\/p>\n
That made Evan laugh.<\/p>\n
\u201cGood clarification.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYour mother would demand precision.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMy mother?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cEmily.\u201d<\/p>\n
For decades, Nathan had sometimes said your mother with sorrow, as though acknowledging a role he had missed.<\/p>\n
Now the words sounded natural.<\/p>\n
\u201cDad.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you regret coming back?\u201d<\/p>\n
Nathan laughed.<\/p>\n
The question was absurd enough to deserve it.<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cEven knowing all of this?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAll of what?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThe pain. Finding out about Charles. Mom. Everything.\u201d<\/p>\n
Nathan was quiet.<\/p>\n
\u201cI regret waiting.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI regret hurting you.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI regret things I can\u2019t change.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBut coming back?\u201d<\/p>\n
He turned toward Evan.<\/p>\n
\u201cNever.\u201d<\/p>\n
The next morning Nathan asked for everyone.<\/p>\n
Not because death was immediate.<\/p>\n
Because he was tired of people arranging visits around the possibility.<\/p>\n
\u201cCome for lunch.\u201d<\/p>\n
We did.<\/p>\n
Maya.<\/p>\n
Evan.<\/p>\n
His granddaughter.<\/p>\n
Me.<\/p>\n
Rachel joined by video for part of it.<\/p>\n
Aaron sent a voice message.<\/p>\n
Helen had died the year before, ninety-four and still complaining.<\/p>\n
We ate soup.<\/p>\n
Nathan barely touched his.<\/p>\n
His granddaughter told him he was violating family rules by not eating.<\/p>\n
He said family rules were advisory.<\/p>\n
We laughed.<\/p>\n
No speeches.<\/p>\n
No final confessions.<\/p>\n
At one point Nathan asked where the frog photograph was.<\/p>\n
His granddaughter put it in his hands.<\/p>\n
He traced the edge.<\/p>\n
\u201cI can\u2019t see it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019ll describe it,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n
She did.<\/p>\n
Emily at thirteen.<\/p>\n
Braces.<\/p>\n
Sweatshirt.<\/p>\n
Frog.<\/p>\n
Nathan smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cRidiculous.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou chose it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy?\u201d<\/p>\n
We all knew the answer.<\/p>\n
Because it was a version of Emily he had not known.<\/p>\n
But Nathan gave another.<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause she had a whole life before me.\u201d<\/p>\n
The room went quiet.<\/p>\n
That was perhaps the final thing he had learned about loving the dead.<\/p>\n
You do not own the story because you loved them.<\/p>\n
You receive one part.<\/p>\n
Others hold other parts.<\/p>\n
No single person gets the whole life.<\/p>\n
Nathan leaned back.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m tired.\u201d<\/p>\n
Everyone began standing.<\/p>\n
He raised one hand.<\/p>\n
\u201cNot leaving tired.\u201d<\/p>\n
We stopped.<\/p>\n
\u201cJust tired.\u201d<\/p>\n
So we stayed.<\/p>\n
Quietly.<\/p>\n
No need to fill it.<\/p>\n
Showing up sometimes meant allowing silence.<\/p>\n
Nathan slept in the chair.<\/p>\n
Around him, the family he arrived late to continued breathing.<\/p>\n
For that afternoon, that was enough.<\/p>\n
Nathan\u2019s last winter began with pneumonia. We did not know it was his last winter. That mattered. Retrospective knowledge makes people imagine final days differently from how they are actually … <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":19620,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-19655","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-insightdrama"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19655","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=19655"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19655\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":19695,"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19655\/revisions\/19695"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/19620"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=19655"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=19655"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=19655"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}