The second letter arrived eleven days after the first.<\/p>\n
I recognized the prison return address before I saw Sarah\u2019s name.<\/p>\n
For several minutes, I left it unopened beside the fruit bowl.<\/p>\n
That was new.<\/p>\n
Once, anything from Sarah would have controlled the room until I answered it. A call, a message, a bill, a problem\u2014her urgency became mine before I even knew what she wanted.<\/p>\n
Now the envelope waited while I finished making tea.<\/p>\n
Then I opened it.<\/p>\n
Mom,<\/p>\n
I am allowed to request approved visitors now. I put your name on the list because the form had to be submitted before I knew whether I should ask you.<\/p>\n
You do not have to come.<\/p>\n
I read that sentence again.<\/p>\n
No emergency.<\/p>\n
No explanation about how much she needed me.<\/p>\n
No reference to Michael.<\/p>\n
No mention of Leo.<\/p>\n
Sarah continued.<\/p>\n
If you decide you never want to visit me here, I will understand. If you decide you might someday, I would like that. Please don\u2019t come because you think I cannot handle you saying no.<\/p>\n
That was almost irritating.<\/p>\n
She had learned the language too well.<\/p>\n
Or perhaps I was suspicious because she had learned it at all.<\/p>\n
I took the letter to Elaine.<\/p>\n
Not because there was a legal problem.<\/p>\n
Because for months Elaine had been the person who helped me distinguish risk from discomfort.<\/p>\n
\u201cIs there any reason I shouldn\u2019t visit?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cLegally?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDoes visiting affect restitution?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cCustody?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnything involving Leo?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
I folded the letter.<\/p>\n
\u201cSo this is just my decision.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m afraid so.\u201d<\/p>\n
I gave her a look.<\/p>\n
She smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou were hoping for a statute.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cA little.\u201d<\/p>\n
Rules had been easier when everything was dangerous.<\/p>\n
Freeze the account.<\/p>\n
Change the locks.<\/p>\n
Call the police.<\/p>\n
Do not sign.<\/p>\n
Document the message.<\/p>\n
Use lawyers.<\/p>\n
Safety created clear lines.<\/p>\n
Now the danger had changed.<\/p>\n
Sarah could not enter my house.<\/p>\n
She could not access my accounts.<\/p>\n
She could not take Leo.<\/p>\n
David was incarcerated.<\/p>\n
The fraudulent documents had been neutralized.<\/p>\n
My credit was monitored.<\/p>\n
The house remained mine.<\/p>\n
The question was no longer what protected me from Sarah.<\/p>\n
It was what kind of relationship, if any, I wanted with the person she was becoming.<\/p>\n
There was no form for that.<\/p>\n
I spoke with Dr. Patel, careful not to turn Leo\u2019s therapist into mine.<\/p>\n
She reminded me of the distinction.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re asking whether your visiting Sarah would harm Leo?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNot inherently.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat if he thinks I forgave her?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThen you can tell him what the visit means to you.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t know what it means.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThen you can tell him that.\u201d<\/p>\n
Annoyingly reasonable.<\/p>\n
That evening, Leo sat at the kitchen counter doing fractions.<\/p>\n
I waited until the pencil stopped moving.<\/p>\n
\u201cYour mother asked whether I might visit her.\u201d<\/p>\n
He looked up.<\/p>\n
\u201cPrison?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAre you?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI haven\u2019t decided.\u201d<\/p>\n
He returned to the worksheet.<\/p>\n
After thirty seconds, he said, \u201cYou can.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI mean I\u2019m not mad.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI didn\u2019t think you would be.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou kind of did.\u201d<\/p>\n
He knew me too well.<\/p>\n
I sat beside him.<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t want you thinking my choices about your mother decide what your choices have to be.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
He frowned at a fraction.<\/p>\n
\u201cDr. Patel says people can have different boundaries with the same person.\u201d<\/p>\n
Of course she did.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat do you want with your mother?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s allowed.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI want her to be my mom without everything that happened.\u201d<\/p>\n
My chest tightened.<\/p>\n
\u201cI understand.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBut that\u2019s not possible.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
He erased an answer.<\/p>\n
\u201cCan she still be my mom?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cEven in prison?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cEven if I don\u2019t see her?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
He nodded.<\/p>\n
Then he pointed at his worksheet.<\/p>\n
\u201cIs three-eighths bigger than one-third?\u201d<\/p>\n
The conversation ended because childhood had room for betrayal and fractions in the same ten minutes.<\/p>\n
Two days later, I completed the visitor application.<\/p>\n
I did not tell Sarah.<\/p>\n
I wanted the decision to remain mine until it became an action.<\/p>\n
Approval took several weeks.<\/p>\n
During that time, ordinary life kept expanding.<\/p>\n
Leo joined the robotics club officially.<\/p>\n
His team was building a machine that could pick up foam blocks and stack them.<\/p>\n
He came home discussing torque as though every adult should naturally understand gear ratios.<\/p>\n
I pretended better than I performed.<\/p>\n
Martha attended his first competition.<\/p>\n
She arrived carrying enough snacks for twelve children.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou know they sell food here,\u201d I told her.<\/p>\n
\u201cAt criminal prices.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYour purse contains three sandwiches.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cFour.\u201d<\/p>\n
Leo\u2019s robot jammed during the second round.<\/p>\n
He looked devastated.<\/p>\n
Then his team fixed it.<\/p>\n
They did not win.<\/p>\n
On the drive home he spent fifteen minutes explaining what they would redesign.<\/p>\n
I listened and thought about failure.<\/p>\n
A machine failed.<\/p>\n
Children examined it.<\/p>\n
They changed the mechanism.<\/p>\n
Nobody forged a document claiming it had worked.<\/p>\n
Nobody borrowed another team\u2019s score.<\/p>\n
Nobody threatened the judge.<\/p>\n
They simply looked at what broke.<\/p>\n
I wished accountability were always learned that early.<\/p>\n
The prison approval arrived on a Tuesday.<\/p>\n
I scheduled the visit for the following month.<\/p>\n
Then I almost canceled twice.<\/p>\n
The night before, I took Michael\u2019s brass level from Leo\u2019s shelf.<\/p>\n
He had placed it beside his model airplane.<\/p>\n
I turned it in my hand.<\/p>\n
The brass was dull now.<\/p>\n
Michael never polished it much.<\/p>\n
A tool did not need to shine to tell the truth.<\/p>\n
The bubble either sat between the lines or it did not.<\/p>\n
I put it back.<\/p>\n
I did not need to carry Michael into the visit.<\/p>\n
Sarah and I already had enough ghosts between us.<\/p>\n
The facility was nearly three hours away.<\/p>\n
Joanne offered to drive.<\/p>\n
I declined.<\/p>\n
Martha offered too.<\/p>\n
I declined that.<\/p>\n
I wanted the road before and after.<\/p>\n
Time without conversation.<\/p>\n
The prison parking lot looked disappointingly ordinary.<\/p>\n
Painted spaces.<\/p>\n
A flag.<\/p>\n
Visitors carrying clear plastic bags.<\/p>\n
People checking phones before locking them in cars.<\/p>\n
Inside, everything became procedural.<\/p>\n
Identification.<\/p>\n
Metal detector.<\/p>\n
Locker.<\/p>\n
Stamp.<\/p>\n
Instructions.<\/p>\n
I followed every rule.<\/p>\n
The waiting room contained families who clearly knew the routine.<\/p>\n
A toddler slept against his grandmother.<\/p>\n
A teenage boy stared at the floor.<\/p>\n
An elderly man adjusted his collar repeatedly.<\/p>\n
I realized I had been thinking of prison as the place where Sarah went.<\/p>\n
For everyone in that room, it was also somewhere they came.<\/p>\n
A door opened.<\/p>\n
We were escorted inside.<\/p>\n
Sarah entered several minutes later.<\/p>\n
I had prepared myself for prison clothes.<\/p>\n
I had not prepared myself for how small she looked in them.<\/p>\n
Not physically.<\/p>\n
Socially.<\/p>\n
No purse.<\/p>\n
No phone.<\/p>\n
No car keys.<\/p>\n
No polished house.<\/p>\n
No David.<\/p>\n
No paperwork.<\/p>\n
No ability to change the setting.<\/p>\n
She sat across from me.<\/p>\n
\u201cHi, Mom.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHi.\u201d<\/p>\n
Her eyes filled immediately.<\/p>\n
She blinked until the tears stopped.<\/p>\n
\u201cThank you for coming.\u201d<\/p>\n
I almost said of course.<\/p>\n
The words rose automatically.<\/p>\n
I stopped them.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re welcome.\u201d<\/p>\n
We sat in silence.<\/p>\n
Sarah looked at her hands.<\/p>\n
\u201cI practiced things to say.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI figured.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThey all sound stupid now.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat happens.\u201d<\/p>\n
A tiny smile.<\/p>\n
Then it disappeared.<\/p>\n
\u201cHow\u2019s Leo?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe\u2019s doing well.\u201d<\/p>\n
She waited.<\/p>\n
I did not offer details automatically.<\/p>\n
\u201cMay I ask about school?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
I told her about robotics.<\/p>\n
Not therapy.<\/p>\n
Not nightmares.<\/p>\n
Not anything that belonged to Leo\u2019s private healing.<\/p>\n
She listened.<\/p>\n
When I described the robot jamming, she laughed.<\/p>\n
It sounded like Sarah.<\/p>\n
Not defendant Sarah.<\/p>\n
Not crying Sarah.<\/p>\n
My daughter.<\/p>\n
That was harder than anger.<\/p>\n
\u201cHow are you?\u201d I asked.<\/p>\n
She seemed surprised.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m okay.\u201d<\/p>\n
I raised an eyebrow.<\/p>\n
She corrected herself.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m not okay. But I\u2019m functioning.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBetter answer.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI work laundry four days a week.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou mentioned that.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI hate fitted sheets even more now.\u201d<\/p>\n
I laughed before deciding whether I should.<\/p>\n
Sarah smiled.<\/p>\n
For several seconds, we were simply two women complaining about laundry.<\/p>\n
Then the weight returned.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m not going to ask you to forgive me today.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGood.\u201d<\/p>\n
She nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m also not going to explain David again.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGood.\u201d<\/p>\n
Another nod.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019ve been trying to figure out what I can say that isn\u2019t asking you to do something.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat may be why your letters are shorter.\u201d<\/p>\n
She almost laughed.<\/p>\n
\u201cProbably.\u201d<\/p>\n
She told me about therapy.<\/p>\n
About a financial-responsibility course.<\/p>\n
About a group where women discussed coercive relationships.<\/p>\n
She said the hardest part was recognizing herself in two kinds of stories.<\/p>\n
Sometimes she identified with women controlled by partners.<\/p>\n
Other times she recognized her own behavior in descriptions of manipulation.<\/p>\n
\u201cI wanted one category,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n
\u201cVictim or offender.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat would be easier.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
I thought of the cabin notebook.<\/p>\n
The suitcase.<\/p>\n
The stolen savings.<\/p>\n
Both.<\/p>\n
Always both.<\/p>\n
Sarah looked at me.<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you hate me?\u201d<\/p>\n
The question was younger than she was.<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
Her face crumpled slightly.<\/p>\n
I continued before she could turn that answer into more.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat does not mean everything is repaired.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m learning.\u201d<\/p>\n
Good enough.<\/p>\n
She asked whether I still lived in the house.<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDid you change the locks?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cImmediately.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI figured.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThe guest-room window works too.\u201d<\/p>\n
She looked confused.<\/p>\n
\u201cIt was broken for years.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOh.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI fixed it for twenty-eight dollars.\u201d<\/p>\n
Sarah understood then.<\/p>\n
Her eyes dropped.<\/p>\n
\u201cHow much were the cleats?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cEighty-six.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI remember.\u201d<\/p>\n
Of course she did.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m sorry.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
The apology did not require a response.<\/p>\n
We sat with it.<\/p>\n
Then Sarah said, \u201cI used to think you liked paying.\u201d<\/p>\n
I stared at her.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNot everything. But helping.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI did.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI think I used that.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
She nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cI also think sometimes you needed us to need you.\u201d<\/p>\n
There it was.<\/p>\n
A sentence that once would have sounded like blame.<\/p>\n
Now I could examine it.<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
Sarah looked up, surprised.<\/p>\n
\u201cI did.\u201d<\/p>\n
I continued.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat does not make what you did my responsibility.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd it does not mean my help gave you permission.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBut yes. Being needed made me feel secure.\u201d<\/p>\n
Sarah wiped one eye.<\/p>\n
\u201cDad knew.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe tried to tell both of us.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
We did not turn Michael into a weapon.<\/p>\n
That might have been the most important thing about the visit.<\/p>\n
The officer announced fifteen minutes remaining.<\/p>\n
Sarah\u2019s shoulders tightened.<\/p>\n
I saw the old panic.<\/p>\n
Time ending.<\/p>\n
Something unresolved.<\/p>\n
The instinct to cram meaning into the remaining minutes.<\/p>\n
She breathed slowly.<\/p>\n
Then she said, \u201cI\u2019m glad you came.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m glad I came too.\u201d<\/p>\n
That surprised me.<\/p>\n
It was true.<\/p>\n
\u201cWill you come again?\u201d<\/p>\n
The question was careful.<\/p>\n
Not demand.<\/p>\n
Not assumption.<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t know.\u201d<\/p>\n
Sarah\u2019s face changed.<\/p>\n
Disappointment.<\/p>\n
Then acceptance.<\/p>\n
\u201cOkay.\u201d<\/p>\n
I waited for the guilt to arrive.<\/p>\n
It did.<\/p>\n
I let it pass without obeying it.<\/p>\n
At the end, physical contact was limited to the permitted brief embrace.<\/p>\n
Sarah stood.<\/p>\n
So did I.<\/p>\n
For one second, I hesitated.<\/p>\n
Then we hugged.<\/p>\n
She smelled like institutional soap.<\/p>\n
Her shoulders felt familiar.<\/p>\n
I remembered holding her after scraped knees, heartbreak, childbirth, Michael\u2019s funeral.<\/p>\n
My body remembered motherhood even when my mind carried evidence.<\/p>\n
She released me first.<\/p>\n
That mattered.<\/p>\n
\u201cDrive safe.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI will.\u201d<\/p>\n
No request.<\/p>\n
No message for Leo.<\/p>\n
No plea.<\/p>\n
I left.<\/p>\n
Halfway home, I pulled into a rest area.<\/p>\n
I cried in the car.<\/p>\n
Not because the visit went badly.<\/p>\n
Because it went well enough to hurt.<\/p>\n
Love would have been simpler if betrayal destroyed it.<\/p>\n
It had not.<\/p>\n
That evening Leo asked one question.<\/p>\n
\u201cWas she okay?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cShe\u2019s functioning.\u201d<\/p>\n
He nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s what you say when somebody isn\u2019t okay.\u201d<\/p>\n
I smiled.<\/p>\n
\u201cPretty much.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDid you forgive her?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo sudden miracles.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGood.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy good?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause then I\u2019d think I\u2019m supposed to.\u201d<\/p>\n
I turned toward him.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou are not.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBut you worried.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cA little.\u201d<\/p>\n
I put my hand over his.<\/p>\n
\u201cYour timeline is yours.\u201d<\/p>\n
He nodded.<\/p>\n
Then pulled away because ten-year-old boys apparently had strict limits on hand-holding during television.<\/p>\n
The next morning, I found an email from North Ridge Auto Finance.<\/p>\n
The SUV had finally been surrendered and sold.<\/p>\n
After sale proceeds and fees, a deficiency remained.<\/p>\n
$6,840.<\/p>\n
Because I had guaranteed the loan, the lender could pursue me.<\/p>\n
I stared at the number.<\/p>\n
Months earlier, I would have paid it before breakfast.<\/p>\n
Instead, I forwarded it to Elaine.<\/p>\n
She responded twenty minutes later.<\/p>\n
Do not pay yet.<\/p>\n
We will verify the accounting and pursue contribution through restitution\/estate claims.<\/p>\n
I closed the laptop.<\/p>\n
Then I made coffee.<\/p>\n
No panic.<\/p>\n
No automatic transfer.<\/p>\n
No rescue.<\/p>\n
Just a bill that might or might not legally become mine.<\/p>\n
Three days later, Elaine called.<\/p>\n
The lender\u2019s accounting contained a duplicate fee and failed to credit one payment.<\/p>\n
Correct deficiency: $5,190.<\/p>\n
\u201cSee what waiting did?\u201d she asked.<\/p>\n
\u201cSaved me sixteen hundred fifty dollars.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cPrevented me from paying something before checking whether it was correct.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBetter.\u201d<\/p>\n
We arranged the payment strategically to protect my credit while preserving my claim against Sarah and David.<\/p>\n
Again, paying was not automatically rescuing.<\/p>\n
Structure mattered.<\/p>\n
Documentation mattered.<\/p>\n
I paid because a guarantee I had knowingly signed created a legal obligation.<\/p>\n
Not because Sarah sounded desperate.<\/p>\n
The distinction felt enormous.<\/p>\n
That afternoon another letter arrived from Sarah.<\/p>\n
I opened it without fear.<\/p>\n
Mom,<\/p>\n
Thank you for visiting.<\/p>\n
I wanted to ask whether you would come again before you left. I\u2019m glad you said you didn\u2019t know.<\/p>\n
That surprised me.<\/p>\n
She continued.<\/p>\n
It hurt, but I think I need to learn that disappointment is not an emergency somebody else has to fix.<\/p>\n
I sat very still.<\/p>\n
Then I smiled despite myself.<\/p>\n
Michael would have liked that sentence.<\/p>\n
But I did not need to imagine his approval.<\/p>\n
Sarah\u2019s progress belonged to Sarah.<\/p>\n
My boundaries belonged to me.<\/p>\n
And for the first time since this began, those two things could exist without one being payment for the other.<\/p>\n
The second letter arrived eleven days after the first. I recognized the prison return address before I saw Sarah\u2019s name. For several minutes, I left it unopened beside the fruit … <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":18538,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-18563","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-insightdrama"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18563","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=18563"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18563\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":18599,"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18563\/revisions\/18599"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/18538"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=18563"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=18563"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=18563"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}