The car disappeared around the corner before I closed the front door.<\/p>\n
I had promised myself I would not spend Hannah\u2019s first full Saturday with Mark watching the clock.<\/p>\n
At 9:17, I checked it.<\/p>\n
At 9:24, I checked again.<\/p>\n
By ten, I had cleaned the kitchen counter twice, started laundry that did not need doing, and opened the refrigerator without wanting anything inside it.<\/p>\n
My therapist had given me an irritatingly simple instruction for days like this.<\/p>\n
Notice the fear. Do not turn it into a plan.<\/p>\n
I noticed it.<\/p>\n
Then I made coffee.<\/p>\n
Mark had agreed to bring Hannah home by seven. Their plan was ordinary: breakfast, the used bookstore she liked, lunch, then his apartment so she could finally see where he lived.<\/p>\n
The apartment worried me most.<\/p>\n
Public restaurants had exits.<\/p>\n
Bookstores had people.<\/p>\n
An apartment was private.<\/p>\n
Privacy itself had become complicated in our family.<\/p>\n
At eleven, Hannah sent me a photograph.<\/p>\n
A stack of battered science-fiction novels sat on a bookstore counter.<\/p>\n
No message.<\/p>\n
I stared at the image longer than necessary.<\/p>\n
My fingers hovered over the keyboard.<\/p>\n
Having fun?<\/p>\n
Everything okay?<\/p>\n
Need anything?<\/p>\n
I typed none of them.<\/p>\n
I sent a thumbs-up.<\/p>\n
Thirty seconds later, Hannah replied:<\/p>\n
Growth.<\/p>\n
I laughed aloud.<\/p>\n
Apparently my restraint had been observed.<\/p>\n
At Mark\u2019s apartment, according to Hannah later, the first strange thing she noticed was the photographs.<\/p>\n
There were many.<\/p>\n
Her kindergarten picture.<\/p>\n
A photograph from a camping trip.<\/p>\n
One of Mark holding her at the beach when she was six.<\/p>\n
A school concert.<\/p>\n
The family photograph from her twelfth birthday.<\/p>\n
That one stopped her.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou kept it.\u201d<\/p>\n
Mark followed her gaze.<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI thought you hated that day.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI hated how I felt that day.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s different?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m learning that it is.\u201d<\/p>\n
She examined the picture.<\/p>\n
I stood on one side.<\/p>\n
Mark on the other.<\/p>\n
Hannah between us, smiling impatiently because her friends were waiting.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou wrote a note about Mom after this.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you still have it?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou know.\u201d<\/p>\n
Mark apparently considered lying.<\/p>\n
Hannah saw the pause.<\/p>\n
Then he said:<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy keep it?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause deleting things now would feel like pretending I didn\u2019t do them.\u201d<\/p>\n
She looked at him.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat actually makes sense.\u201d<\/p>\n
He smiled faintly.<\/p>\n
\u201cThank you for the endorsement.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDon\u2019t get excited.\u201d<\/p>\n
They ate sandwiches in his kitchen.<\/p>\n
Mark showed her the small second bedroom he had prepared months earlier.<\/p>\n
It contained a desk, a narrow bed, shelves, and almost nothing decorative.<\/p>\n
Hannah stood in the doorway.<\/p>\n
\u201cThis was supposed to be mine?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhen?\u201d<\/p>\n
Mark did not evade.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhen I thought you might live here.\u201d<\/p>\n
She entered slowly.<\/p>\n
\u201cWere there going to be pictures of Mom?\u201d<\/p>\n
He swallowed.<\/p>\n
\u201cOriginally, probably not many.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause you thought they would make me miss her.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat was stupid.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
She turned toward him.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou agree really fast now.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m trying not to argue with things that are true.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat sounds exhausting.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt is.\u201d<\/p>\n
She almost smiled.<\/p>\n
Then she noticed a cardboard box inside the closet.<\/p>\n
Her name was written across the top.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat\u2019s that?\u201d<\/p>\n
Mark looked uncomfortable.<\/p>\n
\u201cThings I bought.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cFor me?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhen?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBefore the hearing.\u201d<\/p>\n
Hannah opened it.<\/p>\n
New pajamas.<\/p>\n
Toiletries.<\/p>\n
A phone charger.<\/p>\n
A hairbrush.<\/p>\n
School supplies.<\/p>\n
A framed photograph.<\/p>\n
She lifted it.<\/p>\n
It was not of Mark.<\/p>\n
It was of me and Hannah at the county fair three summers earlier.<\/p>\n
Hannah looked at him.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhen did you put this in here?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAfter the ruling.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause I found it in one of the folders.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat folder?\u201d<\/p>\n
Mark hesitated.<\/p>\n
\u201cOne where I had marked pictures I thought should not be in the apartment.\u201d<\/p>\n
Hannah stared at the photograph.<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd then?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI realized that was exactly why it needed to be here.\u201d<\/p>\n
She set it on the desk.<\/p>\n
\u201cKeep it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI was going to.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo. I mean keep it there.\u201d<\/p>\n
Mark nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cOkay.\u201d<\/p>\n
The afternoon remained ordinary until they drove past our old neighborhood.<\/p>\n
Hannah saw the turn toward the house where we had lived as a family before everything fractured.<\/p>\n
\u201cCan we go by?\u201d<\/p>\n
Mark gripped the steering wheel.<\/p>\n
\u201cAre you sure?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
He drove slowly.<\/p>\n
The maple tree was turning orange.<\/p>\n
Our old house looked smaller than Hannah remembered.<\/p>\n
A bicycle belonging to some other child lay on the lawn.<\/p>\n
She stared through the window.<\/p>\n
\u201cI thought I\u2019d feel something.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou don\u2019t?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNot really.\u201d<\/p>\n
Mark parked across the street.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat used to scare me.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat you wouldn\u2019t care about places that mattered to me.\u201d<\/p>\n
Hannah looked at him.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy would that scare you?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause I confused remembering with loving.\u201d<\/p>\n
She waited.<\/p>\n
Mark continued.<\/p>\n
\u201cIf you stopped wanting the same traditions, I thought you were rejecting what we had.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI still remember things.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI just don\u2019t want all of them back.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know that too.\u201d<\/p>\n
She looked toward the house.<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you want Mom back?\u201d<\/p>\n
Mark did not answer immediately.<\/p>\n
That was the first question of the day he could not solve with an apology.<\/p>\n
\u201cI miss parts of our family.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat isn\u2019t what I asked.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
Hannah waited.<\/p>\n
\u201cNo,\u201d he said finally. \u201cNot the way things were.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you still love her?\u201d<\/p>\n
Mark looked uncomfortable.<\/p>\n
\u201cSome part of me probably always will.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDoes Mom know?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t think that\u2019s something she needs from me.\u201d<\/p>\n
That answer surprised Hannah.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy not?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause loving someone doesn\u2019t give you a claim on what they do with that information.\u201d<\/p>\n
Hannah stared at him.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou have been in therapy.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cPainfully obvious?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cExtremely.\u201d<\/p>\n
They laughed.<\/p>\n
Then Hannah asked:<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you think Mom will ever forgive you?\u201d<\/p>\n
Mark looked back at the old house.<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you want her to?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWould that make you feel better?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThen isn\u2019t that another thing you want from her?\u201d<\/p>\n
Mark went quiet.<\/p>\n
Hannah later told me she worried she had ruined the day.<\/p>\n
Then Mark nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cProbably.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat are you going to do?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cLearn to live without requiring it.\u201d<\/p>\n
The answer stayed with her.<\/p>\n
At six forty-five, Mark\u2019s car appeared outside our house.<\/p>\n
I had managed not to call once.<\/p>\n
I considered this an achievement worthy of a minor civic award.<\/p>\n
Hannah got out carrying a bookstore bag.<\/p>\n
Mark remained beside the car.<\/p>\n
She came inside.<\/p>\n
\u201cHow was it?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGood.\u201d<\/p>\n
I waited for more.<\/p>\n
She took off her shoes.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re trying not to interrogate me.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s weird.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI can interrogate you if that feels more natural.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
She carried the books into the living room.<\/p>\n
I followed.<\/p>\n
\u201cDid you feel safe?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat counts as one question.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cFair.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOkay.\u201d<\/p>\n
She sat on the sofa.<\/p>\n
\u201cDad showed me the room.\u201d<\/p>\n
My stomach tightened.<\/p>\n
I kept my face neutral.<\/p>\n
Apparently not neutral enough.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou did the face.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSorry.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe put a picture of us in there.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cUs?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou and me.\u201d<\/p>\n
That surprised me.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe said because he had originally planned not to.\u201d<\/p>\n
I understood.<\/p>\n
Hannah pulled one of the books from the bag.<\/p>\n
\u201cHe said something else.\u201d<\/p>\n
I waited.<\/p>\n
\u201cHe said he doesn\u2019t know if you\u2019ll forgive him.\u201d<\/p>\n
I looked down.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat did you say?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat I didn\u2019t know either.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cReasonable.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWill you?\u201d<\/p>\n
The question was too large for a Saturday evening.<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you hate him?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAre you still angry?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cCan both happen?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cApparently.\u201d<\/p>\n
She picked at the price sticker on the book.<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you think he\u2019s changed?\u201d<\/p>\n
I thought about the car leaving that morning.<\/p>\n
The absence of phone calls.<\/p>\n
The framed photograph.<\/p>\n
The fact that Mark had let Hannah leave lunch early months before.<\/p>\n
\u201cI think he is behaving differently.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat sounds like lawyer language.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s mother language trying not to promise you something I can\u2019t know.\u201d<\/p>\n
She accepted that.<\/p>\n
Then she asked the question that made me understand why the day had mattered.<\/p>\n
\u201cIf Dad changes, do I have to trust him again?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
The answer came instantly.<\/p>\n
Hannah looked relieved.<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd if I trust him again and he messes up?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou decide what happens next.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat if everybody thinks I\u2019m stupid?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI won\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat if I think I\u2019m stupid?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThen I\u2019ll disagree.\u201d<\/p>\n
She leaned against the sofa.<\/p>\n
\u201cSo there\u2019s no correct amount to trust him.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s annoying.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMost useful truths are.\u201d<\/p>\n
She rolled her eyes.<\/p>\n
Later that night, Mark sent one message.<\/p>\n
She did well today. Thank you.<\/p>\n
I read it twice.<\/p>\n
The old version of me wanted to correct the wording.<\/p>\n
She did well.<\/p>\n
As though Hannah had taken a test.<\/p>\n
Then another possibility occurred to me.<\/p>\n
Perhaps he meant only that she had handled a difficult day bravely.<\/p>\n
I did something I had almost forgotten how to do.<\/p>\n
I allowed ambiguity to remain ambiguity.<\/p>\n
I did not answer.<\/p>\n
The next weeks brought longer visits.<\/p>\n
A museum.<\/p>\n
A movie.<\/p>\n
Dinner.<\/p>\n
Then an afternoon at Mark\u2019s apartment.<\/p>\n
Each time Hannah returned with different emotions.<\/p>\n
Sometimes happy.<\/p>\n
Sometimes irritated.<\/p>\n
Once furious because Mark had asked whether she had discussed their visit with me.<\/p>\n
\u201cHe said it casually.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDid you tell him you didn\u2019t like it?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat happened?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe apologized.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThen?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe changed the subject.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat sounds good.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt made me angrier.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause now I can\u2019t even stay mad properly.\u201d<\/p>\n
I laughed before I could stop myself.<\/p>\n
She glared.<\/p>\n
\u201cSorry.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo, you\u2019re not.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
Eventually she laughed too.<\/p>\n
Repair, I discovered, was not a straight line toward warmth.<\/p>\n
Sometimes safety gave anger room to become larger because anger no longer had to protect itself.<\/p>\n
Mark seemed to understand that.<\/p>\n
Mostly.<\/p>\n
Then, six weeks after the first full Saturday, he made his first serious mistake.<\/p>\n
Hannah was at his apartment when she found a folder on his desk.<\/p>\n
Not hidden.<\/p>\n
Not labeled with her name.<\/p>\n
A therapy workbook.<\/p>\n
She opened it without asking.<\/p>\n
Inside, Mark had completed an exercise titled:<\/p>\n
What I Fear Losing.<\/p>\n
His handwritten answers included:<\/p>\n
Hannah\u2019s trust.<\/p>\n
My identity as a father.<\/p>\n
The belief that Claire was responsible.<\/p>\n
Hannah stopped reading.<\/p>\n
Mark entered the room.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat are you doing?\u201d<\/p>\n
She held up the workbook.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat does this mean?\u201d<\/p>\n
He saw the page.<\/p>\n
His face changed.<\/p>\n
\u201cHannah, that\u2019s private.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou wrote Mom\u2019s name.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s therapy.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThe belief that Mom was responsible.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cResponsible for what?\u201d<\/p>\n
Mark set down the grocery bag he was carrying.<\/p>\n
\u201cFor what happened between us.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou still believe that?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThen why are you afraid of losing the belief?\u201d<\/p>\n
He sat.<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause if Claire wasn\u2019t responsible, I have to accept how much of this I caused.\u201d<\/p>\n
Hannah stared at him.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou already admitted that.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSaying something and living with it are different.\u201d<\/p>\n
She looked down at the page.<\/p>\n
\u201cSo sometimes you still want it to be Mom\u2019s fault.\u201d<\/p>\n
Mark answered quietly.<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
That frightened her more than denial would have.<\/p>\n
She called me.<\/p>\n
\u201cCan you get me?\u201d<\/p>\n
I went.<\/p>\n
Mark did not object.<\/p>\n
At home, Hannah paced the kitchen.<\/p>\n
\u201cHe still wants to blame you.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSometimes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re not upset?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI didn\u2019t say that.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe admitted it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat if everything he\u2019s doing is fake?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat if therapy just taught him better words?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t know.\u201d<\/p>\n
She stopped pacing.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou keep saying that.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause you\u2019re asking questions I can\u2019t answer.\u201d<\/p>\n
She looked furious.<\/p>\n
\u201cThen what am I supposed to do?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDecide what his behavior means to you over time.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat could take years.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
She sat hard in a chair.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat sucks.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
Two days later, Mark requested a therapeutic session with Hannah.<\/p>\n
She refused.<\/p>\n
He accepted the refusal.<\/p>\n
A week later, she agreed.<\/p>\n
The therapist asked Mark to explain the workbook entry.<\/p>\n
He did.<\/p>\n
\u201cI spent a long time believing Claire was causing my relationship with you to change.\u201d<\/p>\n
Hannah crossed her arms.<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd now?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNow I know I was reacting to changes that were happening because you were growing up.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThen why would you want to blame her?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause blaming her hurts less.\u201d<\/p>\n
Hannah\u2019s eyes filled.<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s horrible.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat if you start doing it again?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI might feel it again.\u201d<\/p>\n
She recoiled.<\/p>\n
Mark continued.<\/p>\n
\u201cBut feeling it and acting on it are different.\u201d<\/p>\n
That distinction was one I had been learning too.<\/p>\n
Fear was not a plan.<\/p>\n
Anger was not evidence.<\/p>\n
Guilt was not guiltworthiness.<\/p>\n
Love was not permission.<\/p>\n
A feeling could exist without being placed in charge.<\/p>\n
Hannah returned home thoughtful rather than angry.<\/p>\n
\u201cDad said he might still think bad things sometimes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cEveryone does.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe said the important part is what he does with them.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat sounds right.\u201d<\/p>\n
She studied me.<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you ever think bad things about him?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cLike what?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThose are private.\u201d<\/p>\n
She narrowed her eyes.<\/p>\n
\u201cTherapy answer.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cExcellent boundary.\u201d<\/p>\n
She threw a cushion at me.<\/p>\n
Months earlier, I would have examined that interaction afterward.<\/p>\n
Was I too dismissive?<\/p>\n
Had I encouraged disrespect?<\/p>\n
Would Mark hear about it?<\/p>\n
Now I threw the cushion back.<\/p>\n
The next review hearing came and went without conflict.<\/p>\n
Mark did not request equal custody.<\/p>\n
He asked only for continuation of gradually expanding time.<\/p>\n
Dr. Ruiz supported it.<\/p>\n
So did Hannah\u2019s therapist.<\/p>\n
The judge approved.<\/p>\n
Outside the courthouse, Mark and I stood near each other while Hannah spoke with Rachel.<\/p>\n
He said:<\/p>\n
\u201cClaire.\u201d<\/p>\n
I turned.<\/p>\n
\u201cI owe you an apology that isn\u2019t attached to anything.\u201d<\/p>\n
I waited.<\/p>\n
He swallowed.<\/p>\n
\u201cI made you defend your reality for too long.\u201d<\/p>\n
My throat tightened.<\/p>\n
He continued.<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t expect forgiveness.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGood.\u201d<\/p>\n
A faint, sad smile.<\/p>\n
\u201cI deserved that.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat wasn\u2019t punishment.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know.\u201d<\/p>\n
He nodded.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m trying to learn the difference.\u201d<\/p>\n
Hannah called my name.<\/p>\n
I turned toward her.<\/p>\n
When I looked back, Mark had already walked away.<\/p>\n
He had not waited to see whether his apology worked.<\/p>\n
That, more than the words themselves, made me believe something had changed.<\/p>\n
Not enough to erase what happened.<\/p>\n
Not enough to restore what we had.<\/p>\n
Enough to make the next question possible.<\/p>\n
Could trust return without pretending betrayal had never happened?<\/p>\n
Hannah would have to answer that for herself.<\/p>\n
And for once, neither Mark nor I had the right to answer first.<\/p>\n
The car disappeared around the corner before I closed the front door. I had promised myself I would not spend Hannah\u2019s first full Saturday with Mark watching the clock. At … <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":11729,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-11746","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-insightdrama"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11746","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11746"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11746\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11766,"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11746\/revisions\/11766"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/11729"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11746"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11746"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/insightdrama.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11746"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}